Every day I wonder what I’ve become
Have I become someone my parents are proud of?
Someone morally respectable to others around me?
To my friends? But most importantly…
To myself?
The days go by so quick
I can’t keep track of everything I do
Everything feels like a blur
I panic sometimes
Because the days are going by so quick
And I’m here feeling disheartened
As if I’m not living up to my potential
I know what I do every day
And I feel like I waste them
Balancing mental and emotional health issues
Self-inflicted? Signs point to yes
But the verdict is never too sure
Not having enough energy to live
To become the person I am to be
Instead
I do the things that waste precious time I have
Not all things
But we all run on a timer whether we like it or not
Because I wonder, if ever
I’ll become who I’m meant to be
Because this life I’ve lived
Still young
I have to wonder…
What have I become…?