What Have I Become?

Every day I wonder what I’ve become

Have I become someone my parents are proud of?

Someone morally respectable to others around me?

To my friends? But most importantly…

To myself?

The days go by so quick

I can’t keep track of everything I do

Everything feels like a blur

I panic sometimes

Because the days are going by so quick

And I’m here feeling disheartened

As if I’m not living up to my potential

I know what I do every day

And I feel like I waste them

Balancing mental and emotional health issues

Self-inflicted? Signs point to yes

But the verdict is never too sure

Not having enough energy to live

To become the person I am to be

Instead

I do the things that waste precious time I have

Not all things

But we all run on a timer whether we like it or not

Because I wonder, if ever

I’ll become who I’m meant to be

Because this life I’ve lived

Still young

I have to wonder…

What have I become…?

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