I watched you grow, continuing to do so
I’ve seen what you’ve desired
Your plans were always meticulous
Perfect. Down to the day and time
Execution was needed
But you didn’t account for me
You never accounted for the many times
I would ruin your plans
You never accounted for how much time I would waste
By my own stupidity
All the time I wasted by pursuing desires
That had no purpose
That stripped my fulfillment
And wasted our precious time
My mismanagement of our time and resources
Have led to paths that have been carved far in advance
As warnings from others
Who have also made the same mistakes
Yet…
I have led us down those paths
As we’ve had no other choice
For that, I am sorry
My apologies ring hollow in your ears
But I always mean them
Sometimes I have dreams of you leaving me
I wake up worried, yet you stay
Your silence speaks volumes, but sound sharp
While my words fall flat
You have every right to be selfish, my giant
Believe me please when I say
That one day
I will grow to your size
And we will see
Eye to eye
